tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772757943089614845.post77535088636182723..comments2023-09-19T13:51:23.100+01:00Comments on Gledwood's Random Video Clips Blog: Stephen Fry: Secret Life of a Manic DepressiveGledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772757943089614845.post-69002112103427274052010-01-17T09:45:27.224+00:002010-01-17T09:45:27.224+00:00Genial dispatch and this post helped me alot in my...Genial dispatch and this post helped me alot in my college assignement. Thank you as your information.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772757943089614845.post-76609322182872288052010-01-13T12:27:33.542+00:002010-01-13T12:27:33.542+00:00I will not acquiesce in on it. I think warm-hearte...I will not acquiesce in on it. I think warm-hearted post. Especially the appellation attracted me to review the intact story.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7772757943089614845.post-36683113939555495072009-04-18T19:30:00.000+01:002009-04-18T19:30:00.000+01:00Hello Glendwood, first I must say I never knew tha...Hello Glendwood, first I must say I never knew that Steven Fry was diagonsed Bi Polar. Interesting.<br /><br />I'm on two Medications for my bi Polar. Lamotrigine, which is used to keep me from come crashing down when in a manic state, which if your bipolar you know is one of the worse things in the world. Mixed with withdrawl its for sure suicide. When I'm in a mania, which is my favoirte state to be in, I feel good, my mind goes in circles with ideas I think are the best ideas anyone has ever come up with, I don't sleep for days sometimes, being in a manic state is when I'm at my most creative. I have self esteem. I may walk around talking to myself, even in public, but fuck them, I'm thinking and I think better outloud, if I keep my thoughts in my head they seem to just circle themselves. <br />I can be in manic state for months, and then I crash. <br />Which I'm on Lithum for. The Lithum is to keep me from getting into such a manic state. I don't take my Lithum because it makes me feel stupid and numb. I just take the Lamorigine, because it keeps me from crashing. Yet I still do crash, but not nearly as bad as I was before I started the Lamorigine Medication. It is so hard to explain. <br />I find that the methadone also helps to stabalize me. My doctor told me its because methadone keeps my dopamine receptors occupied by the methadone, wich helps the crashes. <br />I'm not going to lie, when I've been in a manic state for a month or more I begin to hear and see things are not there. My doctor said its the insomina that causes the hallucinations. I can sound very crazy in long state of mainia.<br /><br />I hate the crashes. Hypomanina. I hate even talking about it, because I'm afraid it will come on me. I know that when I start to fall, I begin to think about Kurt Cobain alot. Its like I have see his picture, when I'm in a manic state I still like Kurt, but not obsessed. <br />After the Kurt Cobain thoughts, I realize that everything I've writen in a manic state is pure shit, and I hate it. My mother has save many a notebooks filled with my writing from being burnt. When I'm in a hypomanic state, everything is too much. I feel like all I am is a dissapointment, and I should just die. <br /><br />I don't know if this makes any sense to you, but its really the only way I can describe it to you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com