Monday, 13 April 2009

Stephen Fry: Secret Life of a Manic Depressive

MANIC DEPRESSION! Or "bipolar disorder" as it's presently known. It's everywhere nowadays. Everyone seems to have it.

Here's the British actor Stephen Fry's fascinating documentary, featuring Carrie Fisher et al:


Part 1


Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

Part 7

Part 8

Part 9

Part 10

Part 11

Part 12


AnnaGrace said...

Hello Glendwood, first I must say I never knew that Steven Fry was diagonsed Bi Polar. Interesting.

I'm on two Medications for my bi Polar. Lamotrigine, which is used to keep me from come crashing down when in a manic state, which if your bipolar you know is one of the worse things in the world. Mixed with withdrawl its for sure suicide. When I'm in a mania, which is my favoirte state to be in, I feel good, my mind goes in circles with ideas I think are the best ideas anyone has ever come up with, I don't sleep for days sometimes, being in a manic state is when I'm at my most creative. I have self esteem. I may walk around talking to myself, even in public, but fuck them, I'm thinking and I think better outloud, if I keep my thoughts in my head they seem to just circle themselves.
I can be in manic state for months, and then I crash.
Which I'm on Lithum for. The Lithum is to keep me from getting into such a manic state. I don't take my Lithum because it makes me feel stupid and numb. I just take the Lamorigine, because it keeps me from crashing. Yet I still do crash, but not nearly as bad as I was before I started the Lamorigine Medication. It is so hard to explain.
I find that the methadone also helps to stabalize me. My doctor told me its because methadone keeps my dopamine receptors occupied by the methadone, wich helps the crashes.
I'm not going to lie, when I've been in a manic state for a month or more I begin to hear and see things are not there. My doctor said its the insomina that causes the hallucinations. I can sound very crazy in long state of mainia.

I hate the crashes. Hypomanina. I hate even talking about it, because I'm afraid it will come on me. I know that when I start to fall, I begin to think about Kurt Cobain alot. Its like I have see his picture, when I'm in a manic state I still like Kurt, but not obsessed.
After the Kurt Cobain thoughts, I realize that everything I've writen in a manic state is pure shit, and I hate it. My mother has save many a notebooks filled with my writing from being burnt. When I'm in a hypomanic state, everything is too much. I feel like all I am is a dissapointment, and I should just die.

I don't know if this makes any sense to you, but its really the only way I can describe it to you.

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